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Can we pretend that airplanes

In the night sky

Are like shooting stars

I could really use a wish right now, wish right now,  wish right now

friday

okay. i lost my cool!

menyesalnya buka that page and reading those words... haihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh


 need self recovery... urgently. haish..

again i repeat, i'm soooooo out of the league. *SIGH*

Happy Friday People.

productive weeks ahead

okay. before the next semester begins, i shall fulfill my days with many activities to avoid depression and boredom. the empty slots are now filled with plans to watch a play, catching up with old friends, making new friends, retaining present friends, attending weddings and engagements, ... spending MORE time with the family, becoming best friends with books and the cinema as well as avoiding food. hahaha yummy ones...oh and working out.. ? (pffttt.. yeah!)

Dear cough.. please go away.. I need my voice back.. It's difficult to remain silent for a longgggggggg time. haih.

done with glee

okay. enough of GLEE! The FlashMob was super fun. Never ever thought that I'd be jiggy-ing in the middle of a shopping complex.... like Gardens especially. The spirit was amazingggggggg.. there was some unity, bonds and friendships among us and that it stuck to us for days and days to come. Twas a beautiful memory consiting of laughter, smiles, hugs and laughs among every one, big, small, young, and old, all of us became friends.. good friends. Everyone was so well behaved! :) We're the rising generation on Malaysia today and we shall strive for the betterment of our future and the country. ( yes. I am patriotic, sometimes.....). Can't help myself staying up late til 2am and still grooving to the dance steps. It's addictive and also a good exercise for the body.

well.. as I was singing to Somebody to Love..

Somebody To Love lyrics found at elyricsworld.com

I reminded myself.. "dear Ili, dia tak suka kat kau pun. he's just being friendly and nice. macam langit dgn bumi kot kau dgn dia!!!!!! FIX YOURSELF FIRST, physically, mentally and emotionally! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! You're not smart or pretty enough for him. capiche?! .... capiche.. ;::::::::::::::( ".

Flyday!

AWESOME #3 Rehearsal yaw!

credits to the owner of the pic! :) (i don't know who u r.. haha sorry.. ;D )

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Yes I still have the Flu and Fever! Great!

my sot set sot set day

Last night's gleeking session was awesome! It's a pleasure to dance like an ape, and no one gives a damn of what u're doing. They only focus on fun fun fun fun and more fun. :) It's like a carefree world out there. ;) Well, there's another rehearsal tonight! and yes I'm so looking forward to it. Come on aunts, uncles, paps, grandmas, kids, teens whoever... join the glee madness... if you're not into glee, think of it as a great cardio work out eyyy? or a chance/opportunity to look at leng chais n leng luis. ;D

OBC was great as well..did the Tabata today... sakit kaki sakit tangan tu normal la. Ain't complaining though... but I'm gonna brag that LC AO commended on my sit ups. His words were " Very good sit ups!". This doesn't happen very often to me in OBC just yet. so to get one is GREATTTTTT! I feel well motivated.. but yeah, shoulder push ups still sucked big time. how the hell do u di it.. ? urghhhh

I'm down with a really really bad flu today! urgh. However, hope you people out there are doing fine! ;)

May

Iron Man was okay for me. Wasn't that gaga about it as I didn't watch the previous one and i'm not so into super heroes saving the world hype. However, Ms Scarlett Johansson was amazingly prettyyyyyy and cantik! haish. So I've dared myself to reach Seal by next month.. (InsyaAllah), and to join the delta recruits soon. I cheat too much. hahaha.

One of my mission this year to to open up to people. I'm open when it comes to conversations but I'm kinda reserved when it comes to sharing my personal issues/feelings to another person. I think, anyway. Meet new people, make new friends, expand the network... yah.. maybe I'll learn to be more confident with myself by then. Not to forget... Him.... bersyukur ili..... and learn to be patient. kan?

;) May's starting off pretty well for me. new agendas in life which motivates me to go further.  May every month be May.

Tantalizing Tuesday

okay. today is no blogging day. just random notices.

1. SOMEHOW... I'll try my VERY VERY best to transform myself from a Ranger to a Seal!!! [This is a must.. but God knows when I'm gonna reach my target..boy's a Delta now (like wow!!!!!!!!!.. terrel seyh this one), unc. zamree's a Seal (legendary adidas socks helped him thru this one... he said.. =P ) . I'm tempteddddddddddddd! ].. Hooyah!

2. Glee's flashmob rehearsals' tonight. 8-11pm @  the Gardens. To go or not to go?! Most probably going...  = )

3. Signed up @ sunlight ______________ ! (again!).. a motivation booster. I'm turning into a fitness buff.. okay not buff.. but freakkkkk!... shucks.

4. Almost done with my "Twenties Girl" novel.

5. Nak Sushi Zanmai!~ (oh.. and plan something for Mum's day this Sunday! think think think )

** wondering why was there a lorry and a motorcycle at her neighbour's house at 5.30 am..... and they were carrying furnitures and sofas.... i wonder...were they stealing something?

random fact

I want you...

I want you...

I want you...

I want you...

I want you...

Oh God I want you...

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but I know I can never have you.... 


just because...

('04-'06) xoxo.

Bars and Cages

Oh yeah. It was the cage today! I miss last month's cage session, and was quite suprised that it was brought in on the 2nd day of the month! ho yehhhhh... this morning I was like looking at these metal bars on the field, and wondering to myself.. 'ni goal post utk apa? selalunya ada football goal posts je.. but the setup was square shaped and they kinda looked like monkey bars...'. Then Sarge told us that it was the cage. Everyone's right. it was a great workout. We were divided into groups of 4 / 5 and would alternately change positions in order to use the bar. The exercises that we did with the bars were cage pull up (awesomeeeeeeeeee! but my butt was too heavy to lift up at times.. so apologies for the 'time added on' moments.. really didn't mean to do so).,upside down push ups, and alternate hands push ups.  This was nicely laced up with some grunts, deep squats (jyeah as Sarge says it, it's all about the ass on the grass!) , SEH-LOW jack knives (which literally killed me in the abs and thighs), king kong push ups, shoulder push ups, planks, sit ups and lunges. Of course  we didn't do these in one shot. The exercises are divided accordingly to suit the rhythm. So after the one hour 'fun'.. (but really.. I enjoyed today's work out veeeeeeeeeeery much.. i realize that my arms, triceps and shoulders are absolutely LIFELESS when it comes to workouts. sheesh), my upper muscles were slightly sore.. and fortunately still attached. :) OBC is really motivating and challenging.. I'm glad to be a part of it. Till the next session.. Saturday... ;)

Another sakit gigi remedy

A story by my lil cousin princess, Yasmin Naili.... ;)

This is life... ;) family... ;)

Gigi oh Gigi

Today... my sakit gigi is getting worse.
Today... I'm craving for cupcakes...
But today... my sakit gigi is giving me a headache...

Toothache home remedies:

1. Using Icepack: Ice offers excellent numbing properties. Hold the ice around affected area and try to compress it there. Most often, the pain gets reduced as it is excellent in suppressing pain at nerve endings.

2. Get fresh peppermint (approximately 5 grams), add it in one cup of water and boil it, add half table spoon of salt. Make the water lukewarm and drink it. When ingested, this solution acts as pain killer and can eradicate other pains like headaches.

3. Using cucumber: Get cucumber from any vegetable stores, cut it into thicker slices. Hold these pieces on and around the tooth that is paining and it will start working to give soothing effect. If cucumber is refrigerated, it is better as its very chillness acts as catalyst to its soothing effect.

4. You can try out swig of whiskey over the irritating tooth. Once the gums surrounding absorb some quantity of alcohol, it delivers a kind of anesthesia to the affected area which results in lessening the pain.

5. Using oats: If toothache is experiencing the presence of abscess at gums then holding oats there can draw out the puss. The pain will be reduced.

6. Using dried peppermint leaves: Place a small stack of dried peppermint leaves around the aching tooth for 15 minutes and then spit out. Repeat this procedure10 to 15 times a day. Peppermint acts in a dual way. First, it brings the abscess to the upper surface if there any and then acts as pain killer.

7. Using real vanilla extracts: Get a cotton ball and put some real vanilla extract on it. Apply it on the inflamed location and you will be amazed to find out that it numbs!

8. Using Clove: From ancient times, clove oil has been one of the regular instant therapies. If you are not able to find the clove oil, then search your kitchen shelves to find out few cloves. Try to squeeze this towards the painful area. Clove being analgesic in nature will reduce the soreness.

9. Asafetida: Another miraculous pain killer! Take a half spoon of it and mix it with bit of lemon juice to make the paste of it. Make this paste Luke warm and apply the mixture with help of cotton ball.

10. Use of Iodine: just a drop of iodine put on the tooth do the job. But you have to be cautious and you should not swallow it.

11. Oil of Oregano: Although it tastes bad and leaves a burning sensation behind after application, it has got natural antibiotic properties.

12. Garlic: Make a paste of garlic and add some rock salt to it. Make a homogeneous mixture to apply on the affected area.


Source: http://www.buzzle.com/articles/home-remedies-toothache-pain-relief.html

:~ my personal remedy:  find someone to whack in the head! .......any takers? ;)

TGIF!

Hello Friday!

OBC & G

Okay.. I found out this morning that bootcamp added 2 more training locations in their list. One is Subang Jaya @ mini stadium MPSJ (wherever that is..) and also in Kota Kemuning Shah Alam. After doing some calculations, the distance from home to PJ Astaka (where I'm currently located), it 3 km nearer than the distance from home to Kota Kemuning (Plus, there'll be less traffic lights if I follow the federal highway.. I'm fine with that! phewh). As for Subang, it'll only take me approximately 13km.. which is the nearest amongst all, but yeah, it's Subang @ bandar havoc for me. Thus, I shall remain at my current location at PJ Astaka, and hopefully the same time and schedule. (Uncle Zamree, please agree with me on this! ;) There are times when I'm too sleepy / in pain to drive back home. miahaha. ) Okay. I confess that I'm now an OBC addict. Two times of AWOL-ing from bootcamp really haunted me throughout the whole week... sheesh.. Same goes to G's classes in One Utama. Miss a day of it, then I'll go cuckoo.. Heck.. It's just one of the things I do to destress myself and avoid food at the same time. (yes, I'm growing sideways. BOO!) So with OBC adding 2 more locations in their list, I absolutely have no reason to AWOL.. i can reschedule.. KAN?! (a self reminder... ).. Same with G's class.. if the time fits well, I shall go.. go go go.. No room for negative thinking in these 2 areas... Okay enough of that. (Kasut dah rabak. bila mau beli ni nabilah?! )

**My fridge is full of hersheys from Times Square!  ;) I'm in heaven!  H&Ms, and bags, bags, bags! uuhh... I may seem spoilt... but I'm working my ass here. Only God and my family knows that. Keep you freakin' shouldas, wouldas, couldas to yourselves and live your own life. I have a my own mission to look forward to and it sure does not include the unnecesarry people around me. gracias  :)

Today is Thursday!

5 reasons why I like today:

• Bootcamped in bed
• Came to work early! ;) (by 10 minutes! wooooohooooo)
• Another exam - Strategies in Communication. (What will I fry in my pan this time?... hurm)
• Gastric Pain, which is already synonym to me. 
• Endless rumours around me! (Well, at least they're thinking of me.. awwwwwwwwwesome!~ )

jyeah right.. I'm in love with today!

Oh, Mum's back. She's my Santa Claus of the day!  
Ho Ho Ho!  ;) 

i wanna jiggy! 

Good Luck! ;)

You'll do well. = )

All the best for you n your life........

May I have that kind of luck within me..... one day. =)

RESEARCH PROPOSAL!

DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE! DIE!

*sigh* kinda lost my flair in writing stuff now. damn it! especially academic related ones. dang dang dang!


YaAllah, give me strength and will. I'm struggling everyday. My heart n mind do not come as one. 

a lil bit of strength..

I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react
And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You've made it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing along

fwargh

so, how's everyone today?

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get a grip girl!!!

a drama!

what do i do when i'm going through unstable emotional dilemmas?

1. read a book!
2. if that doesn't work, read a magazine.
3. or else, catch up on a dvd. but not the soppy ones. the one's on life!
4. stop thinking. divert to other distractions, like pet cats or music.
5. this is my favourite. turn on your favourite song (put it on loop), snuggle under a blanket, cover your head, think, n cry all out until u finally fall asleep. .

oh boy it hurts.  haih..

Of pumps and sneakers

Hello Thursday!

Woke up at 5 am this morning in order to get myself ready to be tortured by a few handsome young lads (drools). I'm slowly coping with the thrills and drills that are offered for today and am hoping to gain extra strength for the other sessions to come. The 1st day was assessment day, thus they made us run around the 200 m lap 8 times and lace it nicely with some forms of exercises. So today was my 2nd day and after the warm up session, the Rangers (a.k.a newbies) were introduced to Tabata.Mind you, it was drizzling, so running in the rain was so cool! Heck your parents would never allow you to do such things, but in OBC, rain hail or shine.. session is still ON!. Anyway, Tabata = 10  sets of Push Ups... (this killed me... badly! urgh), 10 sets of squats.. (urgh this too.), 10 sets something.. I don't know what it's called but we basically had to lie down on the ground and lift our legs n upper bodies together, jog, and plank. So there you go. One hour of utter torture + fun! I ain't complaining as I know that that my body needs some form of shock and discipline as my weight is like a yo-yo. There are many positive aspects that Ive gained so far from OBC. At least now I learn to sleep early, wake up early in the morning, interact with new people of various races and religions, and most importantly learn to keep my chin up. the culture in OBC is to always support each other and not to discriminate other people to their weakest point.  I need this to keep my self up and going. I'm not able to motivate myself to do better. hurm..

Well, other than OBC, EXAMS are coming up.

I still have:
i) 1 research proposal to be completed.
ii) 2 group reports to be completed.
iii) 1 presentation report to be completed.
iv) 1 group presentation.
v) 3 papers on the 21, 22, and 27th.

So there you go. Even though there's a shattered heart within me.... life still goes on... right? hurm.. whatever. Hooyah!

*oh.. i miss my my big bro, big sis, a small brother and 2 lil babies. ; ' ' ' ( sangat rindu.